As nearly 5 years passes since I gave birth to my gorgeous boy I can't help but keep relive our past this week. Sometimes everyday life just gets you down. It all becomes to much emotionally, physically and mentally. My body is tired, my brain is tired and I'm running out of tears. The last couple of months have been hard and full on and as a single parent it's hard to get away from it, to escape to a world where nothing's complicated you just have "normal" worries and stress

The last few weeks have been very full on and tiring. This has led to me having exhaustion this week which meant I had to spend most of my birthday in bed. Life as a special needs mum is hard work and tiring at the best of times and I know I've spoken about Ethan and his lack of sleep before but this has been one of the main contributing factors of my exhaustion. Over the last couple of weeks Ethan has not been sleeping well. Most nights he settles late and the can be up and